[ooc: im sorry im cryong this was so hard to write sorry hoping it was good enough to give him justice]
[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Amity Square | Late Afternoon
Caine 36 | Colton 10
Have to find them... huff huff... have to find them.... huff... have to... catch.... huff huff... up...Poor Colton was having no luck at all. Gradually shedding everything else to do with the group, he only cared bout the horror struck looks in the eyes of Caine and Oliver. He was worried, he was scared, really.
Hopping through the forest floor, the small Pidgey was really suffering as his chest compressed more and more. It was a God send when he finally reached the edge of the trees.
Fi....nally... where are... huff huff... they?...But by the time he found them, it was too late.
"Yes. I'm sure at least my birth mother is alive, but she hates me, even if I did find her. My father thinks I'm a disappointment. My siblings either don't really care or also don't like me. That l-little girl and h-her father..."
Caine's paws fell like stones upon the ground, nothing but hollow thumps as he led the way slowly. He listened to the small one's words. "They were my real family... but they're gone now. It's over. There's no point anymore. And I don't want to die alone..."
He sounded so broken.
The Fire type almost felt grateful... grateful that at least neither of them would go alone.
It sounded like they had both been very alone.
If only we could have met in another time, another life.His eyes dulled.
Then maybe I wouldn't be taking a child out with me.Oliver continued, his voice becoming rushed as he seemingly lost the ability to control the words falling out. "I know they're waiting for me, though. In the afterlife."
Yeah... I know my own mother is, too... She will be there to take me home."Why keep them waiting? Maybe you can meet them too... They'd like you, I'm sure."
Caine remained silent, even as the turn of the conversation was dangerous. "Annie's so nice; she likes everyone. Except jerks. But you're not a jerk."
The Ninetales' heart broke all over again.
"I hope we wind up in the same place in the afterlife so you can meet them..."
It shattered within his chest as he halted, his paws before the sickly water.
"...I would..." Caine's voice was hoarse, dead inside as he tried to speak the final words.
"I would like that...very much, Oliver."His eyes turned, violet slowly meeting chocolate as the Chimchar and him shared one last moment. It was only then that the tears started, at first only a single line through his filthy and blood stained fur.
Caine wanted to say something.
Say anything. But nothing came to him.
No words could describe how not right it all was-- why should they be born into the world, the one so cruel it was a daily fight just to stay alive? Why should there be any place that existed only to scar and destroy you?
Life was beautiful. Full of colour and feeling and real; Caine himself had never gotten the chance to experience any of it.
He turned to face the water again. As he leaned forward, one tail gently wrapped around Oliver's middle.
Yes... life was beautiful-
is beautiful. Nothing would ever change that.
As his eyes screwed shut, he could remember all too well, being just a pup curled against his mother's soft underbelly. Life was full of wonder.
One last squeeze around Oliver's wrist... then he pulled back his tail, stepping back.
Life was something he had never gotten to experience. Something he could never say he understood; things as simple as happiness was what he couldn't even accept, couldn't stand.
Lifting his head, he darted forward... pushing his hind paws against the ledge of the pool. In the air, everything seemed to freeze. Caine's eyes snapped wide open, his main wild around his vision as he flew for the last time. Staring up, he saw the sky. He saw the trees. He saw clouds.
The water wrapped around him before he even knew he was falling.
Colton screamed, a feral sound ripping through the air despite his compressed lungs. He could only watch, seeing as both Fire types jumped at the same time, their bodied hitting the water before he could blink.
"C-CAINE! OL-IVER!" His cries were too young, too youthful to be able to know such horror.
What should he do? What
could he do!?
The two had a death wish before his eyes-- why in their right minds would they jump into water? When they can't even swim, at that! The small avian couldn't conceive the thought of suicide, especially so close to him. Instead the Tiny Bird Pokemon spun around and took to the air.
It took effort, but he reached the other group before long.
Tears welling in his eyes, he coughed out-
"O- Oliver, Caine! Need help, drowning! Th...th-that way!" Pointing with his wing the way he had just come, he looked up to Nokes with desperate eyes before taking back to the air.
Adrenalin kept him functioning, darting through the forest fast as he could. They had to... They had to...
They would alright!
Sinking into the water burned like nothing he had ever experienced.
He had fallen into streams before, but this... the water had infection rampant in it. The colour was wrong, the pool itself almost seeming to be thick with unheld horrors. Finding his body moving slowly, dropping downward without him telling it to, he was able to see Oliver. The Chimchar had followed him.
He had actually done it. Oliver was giving his life just the same.
The instant horror and regret that shot through Caine's chest forced his mouth full of air to escape.
Then he was being filled.
Water was everywhere, the fire of the infected water combining with his natural weakness wrapped horrors on his throat as it clawed it's way inside. The Ninetales screamed, his jaws pulling back underwater as he immediately kicked and flailed, but already the light was fading.
He could not swim his way back up in time.
No!
NO!
I DON'T WANT TO!
I change my mind... I CHANGE MY MIND!!
I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE! Be of course it was only natural instinct. Nothing but the code embedded in every created with a pulse. Life. YOu wanted it. You needed it. Even those who threw their's away wanted it to some degree.
"I FUCKING WANT IT!" Caine roared, but the water was suffocating him. He was already drowning. The pressure on his chest grew and grew by the second, stealing his life as he had wanted- as he had always wanted.
But even as his flailing became weaker, Caine cried. Closing his eyes, he spasmed and coughed underwater as he suffocated, his mind growing black.
He was losing.
He was going to lose.
He had forsaken himself.
...I'm sorry....[ooc: had permission to control olliver at certain times, star was fine with it
alright guys, this is when they are found by the group. next post, caine comes back and Snitch, you know what to do. and then i'll be outta your guys' hair :u]