[You must be registered and logged in to see this image.]Outskirts of Pallet Town | Morning[22]
Just great, Maxwell, why’d you have to accompany yourself with a bunch of
capable Pokemon? It’s ridiculous, how persistent they are on living, and on
killing - at least that purple bug got slammed right into that tree.
... Kill... me. Hm? You want to
die, Maxwell, is that your wish? Ha, you’re already dead! But you know, they all think you’re a bloodthirsty killer... it would be fair if the true controller of this body took the brunt of their attacks, no? I’ll just step away from the Venonat for a moment, let my mind drift...
Maxwell knew he was being monitored, probably still being controlled, but he relished the freedom he had for just the first precious moments, flexing his arms. The Pikachu looked at the others around him with sad eyes, but with eyes that registered them and understood that they were alive and well. The Lucario - his name... Khan? - stared at him distrustfully, and for a second, he felt his heart sink, knowing he had broken the trust laid on him multiple times. The Honchkrow looked on from a tree, its calculating eyes telling Maxwell that they
knew he should be dead.
You’re already dead, shithead. He winced at the bitter voice inside of him.
The electric mouse slumped in defeat, watching as the Venonat lunged forward with a spiked fist, and with a sudden jerk of his body, he dodged the attack.
Stupid, I want you to get hit, not kill yourself. But Maxwell
yearned for death, to end the hurt he’s caused; the Pikachu didn’t deserve to be alive, when he had already died! He let a single tear escape his eye as he glanced at his mother, broken down in heartbreak, as the Lucario swung his mighty bone - Maxwell’s head instinctively turned to witness the attack, and ended up getting hit on the side of his skull.
Maxwell was thrown against the tree without question, sliding down to lay on the ground. It didn’t hurt, yet the Pikachu was certain he was bleeding... it was on his right side, the same side where he could not hear due to his missing ear.
You’re invincible to the point that you won’t even feel injury. He winced once more, lazily coming up on his feet again, bring a paw up to his head. When he brought it down, it was entirely dredged in blood, and although Maxwell had quite the taste for blood, he felt his heart fall down a notch. He should feel this. He should
feel like he was
dying, but he didn’t, and that’s what was hurting the most.
The Pikachu rose a fist, then with a mighty swing, he punched himself in the face.
Killing yourself, eh? He staggered off to the side, and when he regained his balance once again, he brought up the other fist and punched, staggering back.
You can only do this for so long. Maxwell was crying, sobbing, for all the things he couldn’t feel. He punched himself again and again, letting the blood flow freely, and seeking repentance, knowing he would get none.
... Pathetic. Death never seemed quite as inviting and so far out of reach as it was right now.